(Warning: we're taking the scenic route to get to this one.)
Last night was one of those nights where I had so much running through my head that I couldn't sleep and I had to get up and write it all down or I'd forget everything and the world will end. Or something.
So much going on.
December 16 is my last day at my job. In June, instead of accepting my resignation when Chris and I moved from Dallas, my company did a wonderful thing and offered me the opportunity to continue working for them from Virginia. The arrangement was always meant to be temporary, so I have known this was coming for a while, but I didn't know the exact date until a few days ago. For financial reasons, I was hoping for it to stretch just into the new year at least, but it seems that was not to meant to be. Though I know we will manage just fine, the idea of having our income suddenly cut in half is a bit unsettling, to say the least.
I'm looking forward to so many things we have planned for December, but at the same time the challenge of fitting everything in has me feeling overwhelmed. That's what's bringing out the insomniac in me tonight.
I keep starting lists and not being able to remember everything that needs to be on the list. So even my plans are incomplete.
I also am doing the December Daily and of course I always want to maintain my regular documentation on this blog, and I hate how much that has been lacking lately. So much I want to say about Thanksgiving, about Potterthon 2011, about my first attempt at dress-making, our christmas tree, and on and on.
And throughout all of this, no matter how hectic I feel, I still want to actually enjoy this season, and remember the root of it all, beneath the pretty gift wrap and the sweater sales, why we celebrate Christmas in the first place. I'd like Chris to see my smile more often than he sees my crazy, frazzled, I-can't-do-this expression.
So this is my December goal: to try to fit it all in, to do everything on all of my many lists, but not at the expense of my stress level or my husband's patience.